The Eternal Optimist

 

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Well, I had a pretty good night last night. Nat Julie and I went out for school uniform night at Altitude. We met up with ANdrew (julie's flatemates' ex) and two of his friends. Most of the night was good. Except when NAttie was snogging Andy, Julie was dancing with (his name was weird and I con't remember it) friend, and Dominic was talking with me. Now you see I know Dominic from CHall in my first year at uni. He didn't have a good name. i.e he only changed his lineen once in the whole year and he never showered or shaved. And he talks more shit than anyone I know. Even out-shitting (just) Ivan. Other than that it was a pretty good night. Especially when Julie was onstage performing. He heh.
Oh! Sad thing now. Mark came up to me this afternoon and told me why Matt hadn't come to visit this weekend. His Grandmother died last weekend. Poor Matt. Apparently he and his Grandfather were the last people to see her alive. Oh I feel so sad for Matt. I wanna hug him and make him feel better. Poor Matt.

Break, break, break,
On the thy cold grey stones, O sea!
And I would that my tongue could utter
The thoughts that arise me.

O, well for the fisherman's boy,
That he shouts with hi sister at play!
O, well for the sailor lad,
As he sings in his boat one the bay!

And the stately ships go on,
To their haven under the hill;
But O for the touch of a vanished hand,
Or the sound of a voice that is still!

Break, break, break,
At the foot of thy crags, O sea!
But the tender grace of a day that is dead,
Will never come back to me.

 
Well here I am. Classes started yesterday. Everything's okay so far. I think I'll survive uni this year. Well, this term at least. I was quite worried about my first Japanese class this year because I only got a C+ last semester. But I think I must have had a hunted look in class today because the lecturer only asked me to read out loud once. I have a lovely free day tomorow on the other hand. Yay. But I have o go into town to see if I can get my phone fixed, and then in the afternoon I'm doing habitat for humanity with Nattie. Keep the paint away from me. I was worried that my phone wasn't working because I know Cloud had been calling me and texting me and I couldn't even read his messages let alone send one back to him. I was worried that he would think I was choosing not to message him. Apparently he did get a little worried that that was the case. But everything's okay now. He came over last night after all the guys had gone out to the Hilly. I know that sounds dodgy but this is me we're talking about. It was better seeing him this time. We were alone and I think we'd both gotten used to the idea of being around each other again. It made me really happy to spend time with him. Although things will be a little different than last year. The fact that we're not living just down the hall from each other, and the fact that well to be blunt, _I_ am his girlfriend. It'll change the whole relationship a bit. For the best I hope. We'll just have to see how it goes. 'Wait and see.' Hah! That's what Homer and C andy did in The Cider House Rules. 'Let's just wait and see.' said Candy. So they did. And look where it got them. At some point I guess I'll have to make a desicion. Unless Cloud makes one first. 'Maybe I'll just keep waiting and seeing and then I won't have to do anything. I'll all just happen.' That's what Homer said. So which am I? The poor lost orphan looking for a place in the world, or the narcissist who can't handle being alone?